10th July 2018

A city, some claim, is made up of public spaces and private spaces. I do not know which city such claims refer to, but I have never lived in it. Londres does have private spaces – this room in which I type, looking into the alcove where my desk sits, closed door next to me – and it does have public spaces, if less than it used to. But there are also thousands of spaces that are neither public nor private; spaces in which people meet together. These spaces are interesting because, like all spaces, they are created by the people who inhabit them, but the range of possibilities in these cracks is much greater.

I think of the meeting I had last night, in an organising space in central London. Some people there felt we had created a stressful meeting together. I felt no more stressed than in many a meeting. I would like to feel stressed in none, but the imperatives of achieving certain goals so often overrides.

I think of a meeting a few days ago, where forty people took democratic decisions together. We created a high together by taking each other seriously, by listening to each other.

I think of a meeting with some Catalan officials a month ago. It started out stilted, faltering. Only slowly did we feel more sure of our common interests. The power imbalance was felt by me, and inside, a secret desire for influence. The tensions in the room became inner tensions.

We create these common spaces together. We don’t often wonder what it is we are creating. Nobody I know genuinely knows how to make productive meetings fun. When it happens it feels like an accident. Is the future fun and productive meetings, or are we doomed forever to productivity+fun?

5th July 2018

It is a still, close day in a Londres heatwave. I am at home but unusually the house and garden are empty. Even when I’m not feeling sociable there is a part of me that appreciates the buzz around where I live. In the future such conviviality in the city will be the norm.

Last night forty of us in a room in Forest Gate modelled what the future will look like. We gathered to discuss our dissatisfactions with housing in Londres, but most importantly to work out what we should do about it. To sit in a circle with forty people and reach agreement on what a better city would look like is a rare privilege in this age. In the city worth building, such conversations would be the norm.

Which is not to say that the democratic discussion is the only point of such encounters. Not at all. If anything what I get most from personally is the relationships built in such environments, the sense of belonging that can be built. It is possible that democracy, belonging and relationships among equals all mean the same thing, or could mean the same thing.

 

2nd July 2018

The city is experiencing a minor heatwave. The sun blazes down all day every day. It changes the places. As I cycle around I feel myself not here, in Londres, but elsewhere: Medellin, Mexico City, Buenos Aires. The atmosphere changes. Life on the street seems possible. The ghosts of intense family relationships, conservative morality and the possibility of collective action are all around. The smell of hot tarmac offers the promise of an increased conviviality.

In a small town, name forgotten, in northern Bolivia, I stumble upon a street party. I am invited to join. A man offers me cocaine on the end of a key. My nationality is a matter of curiosity. There is a moment of believing oneself part of a globespanning, never-ending party. But bonds so quickly forged are equally quickly broken. The end of the party is a return to the family, away from the wider family of the street. I cannot follow indoors, unless the offer of a cousin as partner is taken up. I am just a foreigner passing through a city. Or the city passes through me.

30th June 2018

Today I went to a discussion on how the community could control what is happening in the area. We discussed a long term assault, both frontal and through internal subversion, on the institutions of local and national government. The aim is to change the nature of our governing institutions to be led from the base, and relatively immune to the pull of capital. No one can pretend this is a short road, or one on which we won’t encounter significant resistance.

But to sit in a local park in the blazing sun and discuss this is a beginning. The big question remaining: who or what would we have to become to put this into effect? What would we have to shake off? What would we have to leave behind? What would we need to remember? What would we need to forget? I find myself feeling inadequate to the task. Anyone who didn’t would be crazy. But the only way to build our capacity is by doing. We meet together in parks and pubs and the oddest of places and plot.