19th November 2017

I am sitting writing with a satisfying glow in my body from a day out of Londres with Dr Guerrilla and friends. The autumn air and autumn colours were reviving and the company good. The last few weeks have been packed with projects and events and meetings and documents, so even being analogue and not trying to get anything done was relaxing. But anyway, there’s nothing so good for the mental health as getting your body and mind in the same space.  We were however haunted throughout the walk by the A3, a highway so broad it was impossible to cross without a bridge. The roads around it were clogged with people who live in big houses driving around to have fun, or possibly not have fun. It was hard to tell.

On Friday I met the Scientist after work, not having seen him for some months. His life is working, children and running. He seems happy enough with it. He does not know his neighbours but does not want to. This is the Londres in which we will attempt to build renters power. I am under no illusion about the scale of the task. Yet building collective action in an atomised world strikes me as one of the most worthwhile challenges there is right now.

At the same time the oracle by the Tamesis still has me thinking about my motivations for taking the actions I do. It is not simple, not right or wrong, whatever the motivations. But there are moments when things I have chosen to do cause me tension or anxiety. It is good to think then about whether the rewards of the path you are on are worth the pain. But perhaps one could also consider that if a walk in the woods is enough to get rid of my stress, it isn’t hampering my life too much. Still, to be more relaxed in the everyday would be good, and that goal is one reason to continue my conversations with the oracle.

 

19th November 2017